Catch A Falling Star

♣Wednesday, March 23, 2005♣

feel so sick...these few days sufferin frm cough n flu...can u imagine e feelin of havin ur nose blocked n u haf to use ur mouth to breath but u r havin a terrible sorethroat at e same time n everytime u r inhalin makes u wana cough e air out? yah it's tt bad...ate 3 cold relief le n even bought chuan bei pi pa gao to eat. it's my 1st tm to tatse it not bad lah...haha

dunno...feel watever i do now is wrong de...i duno whr shld i go...i was lost n once i really thot i noe e way out le but in e end i realised actually i'm still lost...i thot i cld walk out of this maze...at least eventually as time goes by...but apparently i was given a time limit. i thot i can pause e game n mayb after some time i can figure my way out but i noe i haf to b fair so i nid to proceed w e game. well...i can choose to remain in e maze n enjoy e puzzle happily or w/n e time constraint find a way out n e game shall end. but e point is i duno if i wan to solve e game anot...

these days keep typin some chim stuff tin is coz of e exams...hai make me too stress...2day mel din come to sch again so i nid to attend tut alone somemore 2day gt 3 tut lor sianz...1st 2 hrs is computin den gt handson submission e prof already gave us a sample le juz nid to change some things but i still dunno hw to do.........den i asked e ger besides me she said she oso dunno but durin e last 5 min she showed me her work n dun nid me to say of coz me copied her ans lah haha i'm a com idiot so managed scraped thru in e end as usual. de chem hor wat kao really too chim le lah yest me spent a few hrs n agar agar sorta figure hw to do qn1 n 2day e prof juz went thru w/n a few min lor made me feel so...arghh den 4 e rest of remainin 3 qns i really duno a single tin wat she's tokin abt...
den noon went 4 lunch w yl,cy n wy coz wana gif him a bday treat. went swensen spent abt 23 bucks each (dived by e 3 of us) feel e pinch coz me 1 wk onli 50 bucks n nw overbudget again but bday once in a yr so yah quite worth it lah hope it will at least leave some gd memory 4 him coz i noe we aren't tt close to him ever since near e end of last sem ba...but i wun 4get e 1st few days we wld go lec n lunch 2gether as in whn i was totally in a new environment n happen to find out some1 in og was in e samw grp w me really gif me a 'shou xi' feelin...oh yah den hor wah...swensen gt disney magical fun prints on ice-cream cakes de gt disney princess so nice...e prints but v v v ex lor must at least 1 kg for self-collection $45/kg n in order to deliver must 1.5kg onwards $50/kg sooo ex...sia but even if buy le oso dun bear to eat coz e prints too nice le...
tin me must must must really start chiongin 4 my study le if not i dunno hw to die le lah somemore 2day lik wasted almost e whole day le...hai...

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8:37 PM

♣Monday, March 21, 2005♣

whn 1 wan some1 to wait for him/her, durin e waitin 1 will begin to wonder is he/she really wan e person to wait or is it he/she is waitin for tt person?
hai...duno wat i'm typin osoo...tin exams cumin too stress le ba sianz in less than 1 mth time lor n this sem juz simply lost momentum in study....
you xie shi bu shi shuo wang ji jiu neng wang ji de

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10:25 AM

♣Thursday, March 17, 2005♣

i once believed in fairytales n i really did...but nw i begin to doubt le...there's no such thing as happily ever after coz there wun b forever in e 1st place...
if it's really mine den y do i dun wish to own it...? n if it's really meant to b den y did it arrive 3 yrs ltr?
dun ever tk things for granted...dun wait till u lose it onli den u realized how impt it is to u coz it will b juz too late....y u still dun understand...?
i wish to cherish u n i promised i'll try to b happy de...
y do a simple thing can become so complicated n y a complicated qn can b solved by a simple method?

yah i noe wat u r tokin abt...i do...

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4:50 PM

♣Monday, March 14, 2005♣

hai...countin frm tml exmas will b startin in exactly 1 mth time...sianz duno y this sem juz lost e momentum in studyin n this sem is damn hard lor hate computing, chemistry ( me onli comibined sci o'lvl std), physic...nid to study stupid effective comm somemore...waste of my time sia ahhh....really nid to study hard nw if nt....den i oso dunno which sch to go into...tinkin of mae but den wil b alone...yah i noe u haf to decide yr own future must b independent dun juz follow ur frenz...but den imagine nid to b on my own 4 another 3 yrs...no1 to tell me which tut room to go or attend lec w me really really sux man...hai dunno lah...

oh yest went to watch disney on ice princess classic hehe~ not as grand as i thot to be but den ohhh...i simply love e magic carpet!! so cool sia can 'fly' in e air de nt juz up n dwn haha den e fairy godmother gt sparklin effect de so nice....n whn snow white tried to bite e apple those kids sittin near e skatin floor v cute sia keep shoutin nooo...! but den snow white still bit e apple if nt how e performance continue rite haha i really love e disney princesses n each coouple is really meant for each other soo sweet...at tt pt i was really wonderin how do one noe tt 'he/she' is really e one for them? it's a pity tt i din buy any souvenier but i noe it will b quite ex...so hai betta dun c wait saw sumtin i lik but no $ to buy will feel more wat 1 haha spent 52 bucks on this le so must save $ den last sun my boy cancel his tution so this sun den start our 1st lesson again so hai...must wait another 4 more times den gt $...

suddenly realized nothing is forever de...feels lik juz suddenly woke up frm a dream...dunno wat i wan...hopin to search 4 ans...mayb i juz i nid some time to figure out...

am i thinkin too much? or is it really...? mayb sometimes it's really betta not to noe too much ba....

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9:01 PM