Catch A Falling Star

♣Monday, January 31, 2005♣

last fri e 4 of us went tampines mall cafe cartel 4 dnr w dx n jy coz dx bday den he wana treat us. zg n his gf oso gt go but they sat at diff table. e atmosphere was abit stiff at 1st but after a while it all went quite well we even play iq qns n orientation games lor haha. but jess gt nbs bash so we left abt 10pm den e 3 of us n dx (jy tk 72) took 27 hm.

whn i reach hm dunno y i went to search those bday cards he'd given me n read my diary...n triggered e past...tin i was too immmature at tt tm i dunno hw to handle relationship b/w others so i always choose to avoid. well...i've regreted n nw i'm tryin to face my problems instead of bein an ostrich. suddenly rmb tt tm whn i sent him tt forwarded msg n he took it 4 real tt i'm leavin...it was so funny n i was v touched. n at this moment in my mind, 我想珍惜他. 想和他be lik last time...can b so fren...wish we can nw juz go out lik tt 4 a movie or juz chill out sumwhr but tin it's impossible le ba...dunno hw to say peerhaps we've alraedy moved to another chapter of our lives but he'll always be my special fren...

den these few days haf been tinkin...there's no such tin as forever. life is so unpredictable n u wun noe wat will happen nxt. suddenly gt a v lost feelin...i dunno wat i wan...nw u may own this tin but e nxt moment u may juz lose it frm ur hands but in e v beginnin do u wan to own it? hai i oso dunno wat i'm typin le lah....

B | N G
9:18 PM

♣Wednesday, January 19, 2005♣

yest feel sucks...tin kanna flu frm him or melissa or mayb coz noon caught in e rain on mon. startin is okay 1 onli abit flu so i ate 2 cold relief tablets den dunno y yest noon throat start to feel pain so specially go can2 buy honey to make some for myself den nite worsen lor runnin nose cant stop(different frm usual) den coughin till v pain throat feel v 'itchy' n my mouth seem lik full of siliva no choice me go drink e cold relief sachet yucks lemon flavour n taste sucky but still force myself to drink but really cant tahan dun feel lik tokin at all juz feel so sick...so dead...den need to rush out 3 tutorials phys, computin n chem. tin do until 2+ den dunno izzit coz of e nitemare or wat (juz rmb gt sum1 chasin my life sumtin lik tt) n me woke up suddenly in middle of e nite coughin n sneezin n i need to wake up at 7.45 lor

den today 1st tm he actually come to boonlay to fetch me c doc coz he noe i dunno like to go clinic 1 den e doc wanna gif me cough syrup n 1 more dunno wat de bt me requested for tablets so in e end she (hee me prefer woman doc than male) gave me 1 for flu n 2 types of lozengers for cough n sorethroat. though flu nw betta abit n my throat still v 'itchy' n pain leh....hate to b sick!

B | N G
11:39 PM

♣Friday, January 14, 2005♣

hmm...seems lik 2nite is e 1st time me alone in hostel actually not bad lah sometimes quite lik e feelin of solitude juz in my own world can do watever i wan dun need care abt others. but den leh ltr whn gg slp me wun feel this way le coz of e darkness...alone in darkness makes me feel insecure but wat to do leh juz learn to get used to it lor whn rl already survive it thru coz me always go hm 1 hee~ hm sweet hm STUPID juz saw a black coloured flyin creature in my rm........nw under my bed lor @#%&#*#^%#$ cant stand insects!! n guess wat i saw lizard under my desk lor so near to my bed oso! in e en d me finally kill tt flyin creature n ask law to settle e body n e lizard as well. haha ever since uni started whenever met w such tin will auto find law 1 so used to it le haha

me tml 8.30 lesson tut haven finish n nw still bloggin...tin coz gg slp le so somehow feel kinda weird nt used to it but i noe we cant cant always haf things in our way n i noe some things no matter hw i dread i haf to learn to do it myself i'm tryin nw coz i noe in e end i've to depend on myself.

time really flies 2day already 14th le my bday seem lik so long ago thou it's onli 4 days....hw i wish if time can juz slow dwn abit...hai nw i finally realized comics n tv show bluff ppl 1 it always protray hw e male lead is so perfect - carin, romantic, thoughful, sensitive, suave, tall n well-built, willing to spend alot $ n effort, always can sense whn e female lead will need him, can telepathy wat she wan n gif her surprises, willin to bear every single of her tantrum w/o any grudges, so heroic, help her clear her obstacles behind her back etc real life whr can find such guy de hai......me noe lah there's no such tin as perfect but onli e right 1. hai duno wat i typin le betta go Zzzzz

B | N G
1:33 AM

♣Monday, January 10, 2005♣

20 yr old le feel so old...but anyway me dun behave lik 1 oso haha 2day went bugis w him to buy e little twin star notebook really v nice wo 3d effect de we watch e aviator by leonardo bt nt nice de den we went v8 eat act me wan go breeks de bt bugis dun haf den go amk v mafan coz need b back at hall by 10pm ( me thot 10.30pm )we got tk lovegety oso gt 3 cards nw hee~ den he acc me go jp me go buy apples den we had a drink in kfc after whn me acc him tk he help me wear e necklace(my bday gift- a heart shaped w 4-leave clover act is me brin him go bur de haha).

reach hall chng clothes den straight go podium 4 mtin but den nutin much. anyway e pt is well me gt my 1st bday surprise if din rmb worngly haha~ after me bath whn me tried enter e rm it was locked den i was 2 slippers outside 1 was law n e other me dun haf much idea den whn me in there was "Hapi Bday" made up of candles on e table n a cake ( prima deli-coffee de v creamy but it's de thot tt counts =) ). i was really surpised...esp c hw inside coz e day b4 she say she'll b mtin me mon 5pm cant go over our hostel. tys oso gt gif me present v surprised oso coz this is e 1st yr he act gave me present by his own law oso gt gif me present but too bad cant go westin stamford tallest restaurant eat le hai...well 1 must b content w wat she has rite~ but tin hw abit sian so after tt she went over linda rm shu bian finish my bday present oso den rl n law keep tokin abt accountancy stuff me n dx msnin)...thou all in e same rm we r doin diff tin...

mon (which is ltr evenin haha) we'll gg city hall nydc eat after tt need rush back hm to celebrate w my mum so wun access to internet so cant wrap up my feelin in my blog. ohh me juz open law present it's a blue coloured forever fren bear bear wo hehe
tys gif me a 'doggy' necklace hw 1 dunno yet coz still in process haha as 4 rl they all leh me already noe le coz me n rl buy 2gether de basixally is me choose she buy wahahaha time really flies....so fast 20 le...so many things has happen...so many changes...act oso dunno wat to type coz every yr bday juz lik tt pass...but this yr better lah gt surpries haha i must express a big THANK YOU to u guys hee~ i'm really touched...thou law may b v friendly n close to many gers but to me he's e closest guy fen me haf in uni hope our frenship can last hw leh thou we may b bz w our life i'm gald we managed to come so far n i really treasure this frenship as 4 rl tin given our relationship is really jin zai bu yan zhong le ba she noes n i noe well we'll always best of fren haha hai tt jessie really error ger msn rl say left her hp in her dad car so csant sms me bday greetin really her pattern sia well xian leh at least she rmb to sms me this tm haha n nt forgettin yx hu may nt in singapore but her blessin did reach my heart.

thou i may not haf many frens but i'm glad to haf a bunch of true frens it's enough...really....last wk was anticipatin my bday n nw celebratin so fast gg b over soon...hw to freeze e time...? i'm tryin hard to keep track to it but it's juz too fast n it scares me...but at least it make me realized nt to kt things 4 granted n chersih my loved ones...well anyway Happy 20th Bday to me! haha hope my dreams will cum true...

B | N G
1:54 AM