Catch A Falling Star

♣Wednesday, November 10, 2004♣

i noe i'm wrong bt y must u cum n keep harpin on it tt ur ans is correct? juz finish my phy pp...e pp was v hard really test ur concept no wonder it's open bk coz it's useless 1 surprised by my unusual 'calmness' towards e pp? coz after experiencin so many times of trauma i haf learn to get used to it le....thou alot i dunno hw to do at least i noe i'm nt alone unlik life sci tt's y i'm so worried abt it coz it seem lik i'm e onli hu did badly...bt 2day as i'm gg out of e exam hall heard alot ppl commment v hard dunno hw to etc it make me feel better startin i'm scare tt i'm e onli 1 dunno hw to do again i really sweat starin at e qn dun even noe hw to start bt tin my 2nd upper honour dream gone le...they say da bao 1st class sure gone 2nd upper mayb gt probe so yah...my hope was dashed...bt den yeah...i'm left w my last pp materials sci which is this sat bt fri i'll b gg hm coz need to celebrate my mum's bday so this 2 day must study hard coz fri sure wun haf time to study de summore need wake up early sianz....

B | N G
4:53 PM

♣Monday, November 08, 2004♣

3rd pp finish le okay lah tin shld b can pass i mean pass yah...bt got a few qn din noe leave blank n sum diagrams dunno hw to draw i even thot pp end at 12.30 lor den whn e prof announced gt 15min left at 11.45 i was lik huh did he mean 50min n den shit i mess up e time suddenly realized alot haven ans so in e end anyhw scramble thru den hor i realized my life sci gt 1 wrong again...so far e ratio is 13:12 correct:wrong i juz pray maintain this way can le juz hope can pass lah keep realizin gettin so many qn wrong dun even noe tt time study 4 wat sianz yest slept till 1pm coz e day b4 study till 5am so yest nite cant sleep keep tossin here n there tin it abt 12.20am we went to slp den dunno 4 hw long cant slp den suddenly saw rl wake up sitin at her desk w her table lamp switch on she say she cant slp oso instead lyin on bed might as well wake up to study i tried to back face e light n slp bt still cant it's not e light probe tin is coz we 1pm den wake up so lik whole day juz awake 4 less than 12hr den slp again so tt's y...
cant imagine i've been stuck here 4 lik 8 days le we always dine in either can1, 2 or 4 whn walkin to e canteen look up it's always e same piece of sky lik tt,sitin at my desk look out of the 'bar' window starin at e same area of yunan graden n everytime whn there's 179 stoppin in front of e bus stop hw i wish i can get out of here...yest was sunday lor! n i'm caged in ntu...i shld b at hm de...really feel lik prisoner...2 more pp to go n i'm free n i'm not gg to touch boonlay 4 a wk lor xcept 20th need to cum back 4 my EP okay lah tin need go stduy 4 my phy liao haven touch yet n alot still dun understand
nw i'm tryin to kan kai yi dian dun b too hard on myself preparin 4 e worst liao juz hope da bao wun affect honours can le n of course lah hope i wun da bao really hopin 4 e better...we cant run away frm obstacle e onli tin we can do is to face e probe e probe n solve it so nw i'm tryin hard...

B | N G
2:15 PM

♣Saturday, November 06, 2004♣

i really v sad.......my life sci gone le i really v v v scare will fail.......alot different frm my fren n alot i dunno so anyhow guess n in e end like all wrong lik tt...70 mcq i juz hope i can pass juz pass i'll b happpy enough le....cant imagine if i fail lor it's juz lik tt tm i failed my QET. i'll always rmb "we r regret to inform u tt u did not pass ur QET" i was thoroughly shattered tt tm n i really really din wish to experience tt feelin again...it's juz lik a huge stone drop onto my head n den i was shattered to pieces....i hate tt feelin it sucks! i did studied juz tt those i noe din cum out n it really depend on luck de lor n i'm always so suay de i hate it!
den mon econs sure do badly de need write short essay 1...sianz den tt tm act wanna borrow txtbk frm sc bt i'll need travel frm boonlay to tampines to return him on mon coz he wun b stayin hall over e wkend den wed i gt phys so in e en d din borrow frm him tin he need it to study oso so yah lik tt lor 2day supposed to study econs w yl n wy bt both of them gt tin need go hm so i haf to study alone jia you ba yeah~
really feel sianz abt my life sci dun wanna tok abt it le juz hope i can pass act aim all Bs in e 1st place bt nw can pass i'm v happy le...n 1 tin 靠自已是最好 at least wun get betray or wat.
though i gt no mood to study bt den " I'll never give up! This is my way of being a ninjia! " must haf Naruto's spirit yeah~

B | N G
11:45 AM

♣Wednesday, November 03, 2004♣

dunno wat to say le....maths was supposed to b my onli subject tt i thot may haf chance to score well bt den after 2day...v tough lor....4got wat simpson rule is...limits oso v difficult, Q2 n Q4 oso so weird de abt x-axis shld b dx bt gt e eqn is all y onli...sianz lah...careless mistake sum more shld be 1/3 i put 1/root3 wahaaah....hope e marker lenient can gif me sum wokin marks dunno hw to survive e rest liao...naruto whr u...need ur fightin spirit sia hai...no i dun wan da bao laAaa i'm prayin...prayin hard nxt sem will work harder i promise...bt pls let me survive this sem...

y human relationship seem so superficial de...no 1 will ever noe hw u feel coz they r nt u...ren shi zhi si de

B | N G
2:58 PM